I usually participate in Wordless Wednesday, but I’ve had much on my mind that needed to escape through my fingers to the computer. So today is instead a Wordful Wednesday.
To my dear daughter,
I don’t know if you will ever read this, and I am quite certain that at this tender age, you will not understand. But I feel that these things need to be said.
I want you to know that Mommy is very excited about having another baby. It is my hope that you and your baby brother or sister will be friends, care for each other, and have a relationship that will extend beyond our years of living together as a family.
Your baby brother or sister will bring many changes. At first, it may be hard, but in time, you will find that you have a new friend and playmate. You will have someone to boss around. You will pick on him or her at times, but you will not allow for anyone else to do so.
You have been given a responsibility, not by choice, but a responsibility nonetheless. Your baby sibling will look up to you, follow you, and learn from you. I am a big sister myself, and I will understand your feelings. You can always come to me.
Sometimes you may feel jealous, or you may feel sad, and that’s okay. Just realize that you matter more now than ever, and that my having someone else to love doesn’t mean that you are loved any less.
I could only love you more.
You are my firstborn, and that in and of itself is something special. It’s not something that you or I got to choose, but it happened that way, and it can never be taken back. We have had the kind of time that only a mother and her firstborn can have together. That is special and unique, and I am thankful for every moment.
I have never been afraid of being your mommy, even before you were born. I have never doubted my ability to parent you, nurture you, teach you or love you. But for some reason, I have fears about having another baby. I am not sure why. Maybe it’s because I still haven’t figured out how I will love another child as much as I love you. Or maybe I am just afraid that I may not be as good of a mommy with the added responsibility.
Just as I learned to be your mother, I will have to learn to be a mother of two. Please be patient with me. I promise I will always try my very best.
We still have a couple of months of just you and me. And though you will be too young to remember most of this time, I will forever cherish it. I am having another baby in part because of the love I have felt for you and from you. What a difference you have made in my life.
Love,
Mommy












